There were countless moments of mood swing. I already had an offer from Microsoft. I wondered if I should try for other biggies like Facebook or Google. Bottom-line was, I had fallen into procrastination trap. I was shy of 9 months to join Microsoft. I wanted to enjoy life. I wanted to take a break. My then friends at Google and Facebook had mixed suggestions.
“Dude, you should really give FB a try. I can refer you and interview would be scheduled in 2 weeks”.
“It’s time to explore. Once college is over, you are never gonna get it. This is the time to have some fun”.
Out of those precious 9 months, I spent 5 months at home doing almost nothing. Major chunk of my time was invested in only eating and chatting. When boredom seemed to kill me, I just used to compile an article on GeeksforGeeks. It was fun.
Sometimes even a simple mail gives you goosebumps. I had a message from Google recruiter mentioning my profile looked interesting and if my interest was aligned, they could commence the interview process. With the mail was attached a video covering their expectations from a candidate in Google. I thought of giving a try to Google. But my practice was at a slower pace. Writing articles and solving problems were just to kill time and pure altruistic. Google is a big brand. I definitely wanted to try my luck there. It was just not the right time. It would be a pleasure to enjoy Microsoft etiquette for the time being.
July 13, 2013
The next phase begins
A long rest had finally come to an end. Nothing could make me happier than to see a person waiting at the airport holding a placard with my name imprinted on it. He directly drove us to Rejenta One. A month stay in a 5 star hotel, dedicated car, a driver, couple of good friends and new city. Whole world around me was screaming to explore it.
I usually get messages like, Why my contribution to GFG has slowed down. Is it because of my busy schedule?
Seriously speaking, the passion which was ballooned inside me 3 years ago has faded. Coding is not the only thing that fuels me. In my college days, I used to code for fun. Whenever I found myself struck by the boredom lightning, solving a new problem or brainstorming a better solution was the saving grace. My contribution has been greatly compromised and now if I write, my focus is more on the quality rather than quantity. I must say, I am a slow writer.
Sometimes I ask myself, what do I know except coding? Is my life all about staring at the screen and writing geeky characters? A lot of things are there in the world and you won’t know what you would like the best until you give it a try. Life is made up of series of moments. It’s not the number of years we live that matters.
For the past few years, I had been wondering what my life is meant to be, what are the things out there which will render me with greatest pleasure, what is the secret ingredient of being happy.
In the last part, we read the story of a boy who wanted to live his dream no matter what the cost. We will resume from the moment Microsoft campus visit was announced.
When your friends are celebrating hard, throwing parties, while you try to avoid them and lock yourself instead, questions like this are obvious.
“Which is your favorite company?”, my friend asked.
“You’ll know soon”, I murmured.
It is difficult if you are in a non-enthusiastic environment where people around you are even scared of dreaming big and setting higher goals. In case you speak loud your aspirations, they try to pull your legs. There was no space for mistakes. Opportunities knock rare often and fortunately I knew it. I was gonna get only one chance. That’s it. If I miss it, I miss it. This could be a regret I would have to live with. Other good companies in line offered half the money Microsoft did, leave aside brand value, perks and work culture.
The time had arrived. It was the same day and time Hogwarts Express leaves from Platform 9¾, 1st September, 11:00 AM sharp. If I wanted to board the train, I had to cross the barrier first. And that barrier was written tests. The train would then test your patience, perseverance, hard work, skills in its journey. If you failed in between, you had to board down. If you passed, it would directly lead you to Microsoft. Like Harry, I too didn’t wish to miss it.
It all began
It was a hectic morning. There was a big rush in washrooms and people were running around. The first written test was pretty easy. 15 objective questions and 30 minutes of time. 77 out of 400 made it. The second written test was scheduled the very next day.
I and Abhinav were sitting next to each other, barely talking to anyone. We had to code 3 problems in 60 minutes on a text editor leaving any scope of compiler correction. You know it went well when you wear a smile after you finish. Luckily, We were able to solve all problems.
Rumors were in the air. Microsoft usually takes time to evaluate the written coding round. We were not sure when the result would be announced. Honestly I wished it to be soon. The sooner, the better.
The quiet before the storm
I was gravely quiet most of the times. May be because I was thinking about the problems, and about the interviews, and about the list of things to do if I get selected. Millions of things were itching in my head.
Solving interview experiences was kind of comforting. “If this is what Microsoft asks, we should do well”, Abhinav and I always said things like this.
Year 2012, September 16
Boarding Microsoft express
I have never been an early bird. Still I managed to wake up at the crack of dawn. We gathered in the auditorium at the first blush of the day. Result of the written was announced. They shortlisted 30 out of 77.
Four years it’s been, and yet, here I write as if it were only yesterday. I remember every small detail, every word I spoke and each discussion I had in interviews. Either my memory is not that fragile or that was quite a big day for me. I still don’t know the answer.
I hadn’t eaten anything since the morning. The spirit was keeping me up. One group interview followed by two rounds of face to face interview each lasting 60-90 minutes and fear of losing it anytime as if a sharp edged sword was hanging across my head was enough for one day. They kept on rejecting candidates as each round progressed. The number trimmed from 30 to 14 to 10 to 5.
In the third round of interview, he said I had already proved I was a great coder and he wanted to check how I perform in other areas like design and testing. I was also asked to showcase my passion for technology. We discussed about various products, their design, why they were designed that way and why I liked them. It was fun discussing the technology (Gap Buffer DS) used in Text Editors, automata and compiler. I could understand his love for these as he was working in Visual Studio team at Microsoft. He then moved on to discussing things like which role I wanted and why so. He saw same passion in me that he observed in one of his friends and he was doing really great at Microsoft. This was the longest round and lasted around 90 minutes.
That night, when I was in cafeteria to catch sandwich, I stumbled upon a guy. He asked me how would I like to be beaten. Funny part was, we had hardly talked in 3 years of college. The same day I got few congratulation mails, although 2 more rounds of interviews were scheduled on the next day. I was very close but I was still one step short of milestone.
I remember those silly thoughts that popped up our minds. When we’ll make it, we would have two refrigerators in our house. One for food and other for drinks. When we’ll make it…. The food in college hostel was horrible. If you had Veg Manchurian once, you would put all efforts to stay away from food like that your whole life.
Year 2012, September 17
Two more rounds of battle
When your name starts with 2 A’s, you are always the first one to face everything that calls for first name protocol. I suffered it my entire college life. I wasn’t spared in Microsoft interviews either. Each round of interview started with me. Abhinav was the last. Those in-between were trimmed down.
I was just on time for remaining two rounds when they surprised me by telling that my one round of interview was cancelled and I had to face last round with hiring manager on Skype. Unlike an HR round, it was purely technical focusing on design, testing, Big data, Graph and Social Networks. We discussed many things few of which I had already covered in GeeksforGeeks posts. Thanks to Facebook for writing technical details of architecture they use which I was lucky to read. It lasted around 90 minutes.
Time seems to freeze when you’re waiting for it all along. Nights were restless. Days were better neither. Mood swings were at its peak. Right from the day Interviews were over, everyone I stumbled upon asked the same question, “Hey! When is the result coming?” or chirped comfy words like, “I know you’ll make it”. It was eerie and I just didn’t know how to react.
Year 2012, September 24
The BIG day
It was an Intel day. Although I wasn’t interested, I suited myself up to check what they had for me on the plate. People were getting called for interviews and I was waiting for my turn reluctantly. I was just hoping for a magic, to know the results of Microsoft interview. This could push me to do fair in Intel.
And then, I heard my name. “Aashish and Abhinav! Are you there? Please come on the stage”. I wasn’t sure what had just happened. Abhinav was sleeping in his room. He wasn’t even there. Every pair of eyes was staring at me as if I was being X-rayed.
“Congratulation! You have made it. They have just mailed us the result.”
“Microsoft has selected Aashish and Abhinav”, they boomed on microphone after a pregnant pause.
The auditorium burst in cheers and claps. Oh Buoy! That was the moment. I was feeling like a celebrity. Everyone was shaking hand and congratulating. I was on cloud nine.
All I wanted was to run away to tell my parents that they could finally be proud of me, to tell Abhinav that we had done it.
People were running after us. This is a tradition. They beat you with belts on happy occasions. Happier the moment, harder you’re beaten up. You can hide buried treasure or a winning poker hand. But you can’t hide the true happiness. It was all around. Between shaking dad’s voice soaked half in tears & half in happiness and mine out of control flowing emotions, I was feeling no pain.
I was bombarded with messages, mails and calls. For once in my life, I wanted to be alone. It was my time. I wanted to live it. I wished to freeze it. I wished to hold it. Christmas had arrived little early for me and Santa had bestowed on me. It was the best birthday gift I could imagine. It was a magic. They say, all magic comes with a price. And I think I had paid the price.
There were few awkward moments when Abhinav and I overheard things like, “Look, 32 lacs are going”, while we were wandering on college roads.
Year 2012, November
We were in news
It had been almost two months since result was announced. I was on a long vacation, sleeping at home when I got a call from placement department. They wanted a picture of me to feature on the college site. Few days later, my cousin brother called me to tell that he was holding college prospectus featuring picture of me.
The diabetic sweet deal
There is nothing much to do after interviews. Scoring GPA in college was least of my interest. I wanted to learn something which could smoothen my path in company but my friends on Quora advised me not to bother. Most of my time was spent in eating, sleeping, chatting and GeeksforGeeks. I was having a word with one of my friend when he asked me if I was going to join Microsoft or GeeksforGeeks.
As usual, Sandeep and I were discussing about GeeksforGeeks, plans for its growth, revenue model etc. He asked me my thoughts about career. “Seriously, the way GeeksforGeeks is going, you might like to join full time. You can choose designation of your choice – CEO or CTO”, he proposed. This was overwhelming, a very sweet deal indeed. Sandeep’s offer was very difficult to reject. However, a lot of things were on stake. GeeksforGeeks was in very early phase. Working in it full time would render me literally poor. Microsoft was a brand even my grandfather talked about. It was really a tough choice to make. I decided to spend few years at Microsoft to learn things, to learn how stuffs work, to learn something industrial. Microsoft was changing tens of millions of lives and I wanted to be part of it.
If you ask me, whether I regret my decision today. Well, I ain’t sure. Life is made up of small moments and each moment has its own pros and cons. A choice doesn’t come with a warning sign. Sometimes, you don’t know what is going to happen. Sometimes, you don’t wanna care. Sometimes, all you wish is to live the moment. Today when I have nothing to do or when I am really pissed off at work, I think of that time. I get lost in a reverie imagining how my life would have been changed. But thinking about it won’t change a single dime of my life. Even if I join GeeksforGeeks today, it won’t be the same it was 4 years ago.
What do I feel when I look back today?
Decisions you make lead to doom or fame
I guess there is no one to blame
Sometimes you rise, sometimes you fail
But things you learn are worth a hell
There is no secret ingredient. Healthy dose of faith. Genuine commitment. Sharp focus. Hard work. Everything should be put in right proportion. I didn’t do anything different. I believed in myself and followed my passion. This journey was an assorted union of desire, ambition, luck and talent where each of them played their parts beautifully. My life has been a roller coaster and I enjoyed the ride thoroughly. You make mistakes and you learn from them. It is part of life.
Our goal at GeeksforGeeks was to maintain quality content. Few of the readers asked for content to focus on basics. That’s how GeeksQuiz idea was born. It was Sandeep’s brainchild. I wasn’t interested much in site development. I chose to contribute to content instead.
Year 2013, January 28
The most awaited offer letter
I don’t know why most of the comms Microsoft did, happened to be in the early morning. The HR inboxed me the most anticipated offer letter. Three days after we received offer letter, they shot another mail inviting us to an event “New Hire’s Day”. It was exhilarating and hell lot of fun. I have documented my experience here: My experience of New Hires’s Day at Microsoft
Year 2013, Summer
What can be more difficult than solving a problem? Well, creating a problem. IIIT-Bhubaneswar had a tech fest in summer. They asked GeeksforGeeks to organize the coding contest. Designing problems was very challenging. I had never thought from the perspective of being on the other side of the table. There were many things to be taken care. Problem should be new. Domain of problems should be proportionally distributed in different difficulty levels. But how do you decide the difficulty level? If you’re the problem setter, you happen to know the solution. Does that mean the problem would be that trivial for others as well? Have you ever wondered how they categorize difficulty level of Sudoku? I will leave you keep thinking. It was a different experience altogether.
They had also asked for a guest lecture in the college. Since I was in the town, Sandeep asked me if I wanted to go. Sadly, I was not a good public speaker. One of my part wanted to go, but the other was pulling me back due to my fear of stage. Unfortunately, my other part won the battle and I ended up watching Batman.
To be continued…
Signing off for now. Hope you enjoyed reading this. Everyone has a journey. Well this is my journey. Next part is here:
This blog chronicles my journey of highs and lows, of yeses and nos, of successes and failures. It’s a long story. Before we begin, go and get some coffee. I’ll wait.
Before I dive into bragging about being a Microsoftie and what is life at Microsoft all about, let me ride you through my journey in life so far, my thoughts as a child which inspired and helped me to become what I’m today, choices I made at various stages of my life, which I sometimes adore, sometimes regret. But if you ask me, “Am I happy today?” I would probably say “Yes”. Sometimes life is not all about making choices. Sometimes choices can go all wrong. But what matters is how you react to those wrong choices. Whether you keep on cursing God or whoever played a role in making that decision or you bounce back by working continuously until you make it right. Failures are important. It tells you that you are not invincible. It tells you that you are human. It’s okay to fail. Harder you fail, harder you work and sweeter the success is.
It was a hot Tuesday noon. Sun was at its peak and I was almost sleeping. A question suddenly broke my reverie.
“What do you want to become when you grow up?”
This question was asked by my class teacher Nripesh Sir. He was expecting each of us sitting in the classroom to have a goal in life. Some said doctor, some lawyer, some engineer, some even said a SOFTWARE engineer. I didn’t know what a software engineer work was. All I had heard was Bill Gates. Thanks to the local regional newspapers that keep on publishing about him. That he is the richest man and he founded Microsoft. And Microsoft develops software. So I was under impression that if I wanted to become rich, the formula was to be a software engineer. I always day dreamed about becoming a Microsoft engineer. Little did I know that once an imagination would become a reality.
An innocent small town boy who had never left home except with parents and siblings on summer holidays, was so much excited to explore the outside world although he had no clue how he would survive alone. Like many kids, he had heard about IIT being a very prestigious college. He was sure that his life would be set if he scored a good rank. But how? He had failed twice in Bansal Classes(an institute offering IIT entrance preparation) entrance test. He started having very bad feelings about his capabilities. His mother always praised how much intelligent he was since his very childhood. May be academics and competitions are two very different things. Needless to say, his parents had very high hopes from him. Somehow he got scholarship in Narayana IIT Academy. He was going to study in the capital city of the country, New Delhi.
Year 2008, May 30
Our small town boy was no more that innocent and childish. He had learned many things in life. Unfortunately, not that thing for which he had spent his parents’ hard earned money. All thanks to the world of internet he had been exposed to and 100% bonus offer in cyber cafes. He had just passed higher education, failed to score any rank in IIT-JEE and ready to face taunts of his relatives and neighbors.
Year 2008, June onward
Everything seemed to be lost in his life. He had lost an important match. But even Sachin Tendulkar sometimes doesn’t play well when it’s not his day. May be he should give another try. In the last quarter of the year, Super 30 conducted its test. It was a huge opportunity for him to bounce back. After all, his cousin brother was pursuing bachelors from IIT – KGP and he had too learned the tricks in Super 30. Months of patience and four rounds of test paid off. He had made it. People around him had started recognizing his potential.
He didn’t join Super 30. He knew life won’t be easy there. He would miss delicious cuisines. And if he was able to crack Super 30 which gives near to 100% success rate, why can’t he crack IIT entrance on his own?
Note: Super 30 is a non-profit organization providing free food and education.
Fast forward 7 years, It was time to choose a college which would shape my career and hence my life. A 4 years of time was to decide my next 40 years of life. Sadly, I didn’t have any good option. I was in waiting list in JEE and couldn’t score a rank in AIEEE which could secure me a good college. I and my friend Kanhaiya were just scrolling through the placement records of colleges in our league. I was able to score 3 digit ranks in SRM, CUSAT and KIIT. And the one news locked our tired eyes –
“MICROSOFT selects eight students from KIIT”
and the content highlighted –
“Microsoft personnel making round the country’s premier institutions for hunting the talents to join them, were ecstatic finding the fountain of talent in KIIT”. The news is below:
That was it. If Microsoft visits a college, it couldn’t be that bad. We had locked our choice. After all, this is what we wanted all along. This is what I wanted all my life.
Even 2008 recession couldn’t affect my decision. My choice was so BOLD that even though people around me were opting for non-computer science streams, I was stuck with my decision of moving ahead with CSE in the counselling. Funny to hear, I was the first one (All India Rank 435) to register for CSE stream.
They say, “It’s never easy to get what you want. And if it’s easy, your goal is not BIG enough”. For a guy who was seeing a laptop first time, it wasn’t easy to get adapted to coding and problem solving world. It was frustrating, challenging and no less than a nightmare. When his friends used to code a simple problem in 10 minutes through 3 different approaches, he struggled hard for 3 hours for the easiest approach. All he knew was if he wanted to be the best, he had to work fucking hard and manage his time smartly.
Partners in crime
It was a long train journey. There is nothing much to do when you are traveling with a friend who is crazy for Physics, Electronics and Probability. That crazy friend was Aakash, my roomie. Since third semester was about to commence, there were many known faces traveling in the same train. Aakash introduced me to a guy named Abhinav. He was the guy I had heard about from few of my friends. He was famous for applying his learnings to create small games.
We were alike in some respects, no prior coding background, big foodie and fan of TV series Crime Patrol. The only difference was that I wanted to build something, and he was already doing it. I was hugely inspired from what he was doing. From that moment onwards, we developed few projects together, studied together and prepared for companies together.
Curiosity: The most powerful thing you own
It is said that knowledge and skill when not applied tend to fade over time. My dad always used to say, “If you have got a gun, you must know how and when to use it”. Curiosity is the most powerful thing you own. It lets you wonder about things in the wildest possible imagination and opens your mind to seek for answers. While I was killing time at home in the summer break, my dad upgraded Samsung phone from Micromax. There were more than 600 contacts saved in the older phone and unfortunately for us, Samsung failed to support the contact backup file created in the Micromax. I wrote a small program to convert the backup file into something that Samsung could understand. The job that could have taken hours of man efforts without guarantee of accuracy was done in thirty minutes. That day my dad realized the true potential of programming. This might seem to be a very naive thing today. But believe me, I felt very proud of myself. If you learn something, you must be able to apply it in day to day life.
It was the time when I always had a feeling of something burning inside me. It was passion. Thanks to my DAA teacher Biswajeet Sahoo Sir and C++ teacher Narayan Sir who exposed me to the beautiful world of Algorithms and problem solving. I never looked back. I kept on practicing from various online sources. It was the time when I came across GeeksforGeeks, an online portal created by geek for geeks. I just fell in love with the way it presented the problems. The more time I invested into it, the more I learnt. No other teacher had taught me that many things than GFG did.
First milestone towards success
Harry… Harry… Someone was calling me. Oh! I had just slept. Aakash wanted to tell that a college in Bhubaneswar was organizing a coding competition. Many of our friends had already left for registration. Somewhere between awake and asleep, I agreed to give it a try. We registered ourselves with team name “e-Programmers”. There were around 200 teams participating in the contest and best 2 teams were to be declared winners. 5 hours of coding and hell lot of frustration, we had lost our hopes. Already 4 teams had left with smiley faces which meant we were done.
The next day we got call from Silicon Institute to participate in the result announcement ceremony. And then they announced… Whoa! That feeling was beyond words. Abhinav’s team came first and mine second. Yes, we were the best two performers.
That day, I felt a tiny angel with little wings flying around me, clapping for my Lilliput success.
One evening, there was a notice from some company asking for submitting projects. The chosen ones were to be given some kind of recognition. It was a fantastic opportunity to add another line under achievements section in resume. My college didn’t witness (m)any good companies and it could help in showcasing skills when applying off-campus. Things went south when my friends signed up without me. There was weird and nasty rule that we could only register in group of three, no less, no more. I was broke. I lost sight of the goal I was chasing for that long. This was one such incident which compelled me to look life from a different perspective altogether. It taught the importance of being independent and doing things on my own. Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted can teach the best of lessons. You either rot or shine. It was the trigger of my journey at GeeksforGeeks which helped me to keep focus and not loose my sane.
Sometimes you would find the goal is too far,
Sometimes you would find things to be falling apart,
Sometimes you would feel everything is wrong,
Sometimes you would feel sadness in every song,
Sometimes the world around would seem to down you,
Sometimes noone would understand what you’re going through,
Sometimes your friends would leave you alone,
Sometimes your sorrows would break you bone by bone,
Sometimes you won’t be able to think straight,
Sometimes you would lose faith in your fate,
Sometimes your every effort would seem to fail,
Sometimes you would be left frustrated as hell,
Sometimes you would feel like ending up your life,
Sometimes you would feel you have no choice,
If you’re fond of roses my friend,
Of the nearby thorns, must not you be afraid,
You must believe in yourself and be strong,
You must fight back and right what is wrong,
Push harder, try again,
Whatever you do, must not you loose your sane.
One fine evening in November 2011, I rushed into neighbour’s room for something related to assignments. That’s when I found him reading a book which looked interesting. 2 days later I got it from Flipkart. It wasn’t long that I was fascinated by Narasimha’s book. It presented problems in increasing level of difficulty. The most exciting thing was that once you feel accomplished after solving it with one method that you thought was good enough, it would show you 3 more ways to solve the same problem. It was kind of crazy.
Narasimha’s life was inspiring. He had worked at good companies and then decided to seek a new challenge. Call it weird or ambitious, but I take deep interest talking to people who have achieved what I dream to be.
It was a lazy afternoon when I got a chance to talk to him about the book and the project I should do in final year.
“Java is an ocean. You can do a lot there.”, he responded.
“BTW, what do you feel about the price of book?”, he further added.
“To be honest, I feel it is bit costly. 375 INR would be okay”, I tried to make my tone as soft as I could. That was when he talked to the publisher and everyone in India was able to get it in 25% less price than it was.
Few days later, I got another mail from Narasimha regarding my contribution to his new site CareerMonk. He was asking me to write articles the way I was doing on GeeksforGeeks.
“You would be featured in future editions of my book.”, he put the icing on the cake.
Problem was that I wasn’t an article machine. It takes lot of efforts and time to compile each one of them.
I asked him a simple question, “What am I going to get apart from name?”. If it is the fame I was concerned about, GeeksforGeeks was giving me enough. Besides, internet wins over hard copy any time of the day.
“Unfortunately, I am not in a good financial state”, he expressed his concerns.
I said, “Sorry! I would like to continue my association with GeeksforGeeks”.
Today when I look back to those olden days, I must say that integrity is something you can’t wear off. I could have easily contributed to both. But that won’t have justified my contribution. I wanted to make a difference and I was already doing it.
I was looking for a summer internship. Theory of Computation teacher Vidyadhar Sir announced in the classroom that there was an opening for Natural Language Processing intern in IIIT Hyderabad. So if anyone was interested, (s)he could contact him for further details. Well I met him post class hours asking many questions related to intern position and his views about the importance of that in my career. He suggested me to hunt down this intern offer only when my interest lied in higher studies and research field. “Why do you not prepare for something that looks for guys with strong coding and problem solving skills?”, he asked. Like Microsoft and Google.
Moderator at GeeksforGeeks
Today when I look back over my life, I just can’t believe that a person can be that insane to chat 10 hours a day and that too only technical stuffs. Yes, this can happen when two crazy people with similar mindset meet. While solving problems on GeeksforGeeks, there were few articles that were so well compiled and informed that I just couldn’t help myself but to contact that guy. I shot him a message on Facebook and this is where we connected. I was very active on GeeksforGeeks. And he was kinda impressed with my thoughts and approaches of solving problems. Our discussion trails were everywhere – Facebook, Gmail, Quora, CareerCup, GeeksforGeeks, StackOverflow. I had never met anyone with so much knowledge, zeal and thirst for coding & problem solving despite the fact that he was an Electronics graduate. For him, problem solving was a time pass. My passion grew with time. Every discussion with him reminded me how little I knew and I needed to manage time smartly and keep my learning curve steep. I started practicing insanely on GeeksforGeeks, CareerCup, LeetCode, SPOJ and other online portals. Few problems took me weeks to solve. I solved problems that were pending since more than 6 months in the discussion forum. That’s when it all started. My solutions started publishing as GFG articles, one after the other.
GeeksforGeeks was growing fast. They were looking for someone who could participate actively in the discussion forum, point out improvements in guest articles and write unique content to enrich the site.
One evening, I got a mail from Sandeep, GFG founder asking if I would like to join the team. I couldn’t think of a single reason why I shouldn’t. GFG was already impacting many lives and it could help me to connect with other geeks. Although it was a non-profit initiative, I was willing to join. I was just 22 and it was the best time to learn and grow. In short, it was a time when my thoughts were not aligned with Joker’s.
But, it was so good to see my name on GFG About us page:
Placement talks were all around the hostel corridors and hallways. Even scorching hot summer couldn’t lessen the spirit. Everyone seemed crazy.
15th August, yes that’s when first company visited our campus. Aricent was kind of mass recruiter, but better than mass recruiters like TCS, Wipro. At least this is what we were foretold. They conducted a written test, a group discussion, a technical interview lasting 45 minutes followed by an HR interview of 25 minutes. Written test had aptitude, English comprehension, vocab, technical each with individual sectional cut off and individual time allocation. They asked almost everything (C, C++, OS, DBMS, Digital Electronics, Microprocessors, Comp. Org. & Architecture and DS) in technical interview. I think their goal was to cover breadth and not depth, because when I thought I was doing well in DS, my interview was over. The HR interview was very unique and I didn’t expect such weirdo questions. Questions like “5 uses of a ball-pen except writing” or “What do I feel when I look myself in the mirror every morning?” or “Tell me a secret of yours which noone knows about, not even your parents or siblings” needed quick response. Final result was announced on 17th August. 151 had made it.
It felt good that I had somehow made it to Aricent. I was skeptical at first because of two reasons.
I didn’t want to work in a networking based company. Networking was never my cup of tea not because I couldn’t learn it, but because I didn’t like it
I had demonstrated good coding and DS skills. I was asked twice that why am I not targeting big MNCs like Microsoft and Google. It was very likely that I would NOT join Aricent if I get a better offer
Although Aricent was a good start, it offered very less salary. It could never fulfill my necessities. With 6 lacs of education loan on head and frequent reminders from bank manager to keep sanction letter always in pocket in case it helps me to concentrate whenever I lose focus, I needed to do better. You can say the reason being my passion in coding and problem solving. But the truth was that I had to pay 21k per month to the bank. This scared me more than anything that with so less salary in hand, how was I going to survive in inflated cities. I was simply not happy with Aricent.
One fine evening, there was a notice from placement department. Microsoft was to conduct first round written test on 1st September. It was perhaps the biggest news for the college and aspirants alike. Everyone was buzzing about it. Why shouldn’t they? After all, Microsoft was visiting the campus after 5 years. Nothing could make me happier. The time had come to showcase my hard work and my experience which I had garnered through the years. Lady luck had finally shone upon me.
To be continued…
Signing off for now. Hope you enjoyed reading this. Everyone has a journey. Well this is my journey. Next part is here:
This poem is dedicated to our old nostalgic childhood days. Days when we were innocent and life was simpler. People who grew up in 90s would feel and understand this better because they have lived those golden days. Hope this verse let you relive those moments. Let this verse drown you into those memory chains.
Bachpan ke woh din jab hum khub mastiyan karte the,
Nadan bade the, kisi se hum na darte the,
Kitni saral thi zindagi hamari,
Phir bhi bade khush rahte the,
Jab chhoti ungli chhu lene bhar se dosti ho jaya karti thi,
Nafrat aur jaatiwaad hume samajh na ati thi,
Jab garmi ki chhutiyon mein kulfi ko mann lalchata tha,
Masterji ki ek chhadi se pura homework ho jata tha,
Jab tv par do hi channel ata tha,
Jab tales pin aur shaktiman hame bahut bhata tha,
Jab ghar mein ek hi phone ki ghanti bazti thi,
Jab doston ke sath badi shararat hoti thi,
Jab pokemon go nahi, luka chhupi ki masti thi,
Baarish ke mausam mein kagaz ki kasti thi,
Jab google maps nahi, logon se pata puchha karte the,
Apni soch ko facebook nahi, bas diary mein likh diya karte the,
Woh nani ke ghar jane ko bade utavle hote the,
Pepperment ki toffiyon ke liye hum fut fut ke rote the,
Woh pariyon ki kahaniyan sune bina neend kahan ati thi,
School mein mummy papa ki yaad badi satati thi,
Jab class mein top kar puri duniya jeet lete the,
Papa ke gifts bade anokhe hote the,
Utni khushiyan toh aaj kisi cheez se nahi milti hain,
Ab samajh aya khwaishein toh maa baap ke paison se hi puri hoti hain,
Woh bachpan kitna suhana tha,
Khushiyon ka khazana tha,
Bachpan mein log pucha karte the,
Bade hokar kya banna hai,
Jawab ab samajh aya,
Phir se bachcha banna hai,
Woh bachpan ke din kahan gaye,
Yaaron hum kyun bade ho gaye.
A tale of friendship of a boy and a girl who met on a social media. This verse is dedicated to our 3 years of great friendship. Hope you like it.
My nights used to be lonely and boring,
Neither my days were that exciting,
Coding was my only world,
Then one fine day, my eyes got stuck on a girl,
She looked cute, she looked naughty,
She was a glowing piece of beauty,
I thought hard if I should shoot her a message,
Scared if she would reply or my attempt would be in wreckage,
But she did,
And that changed something in me,
You know who I’m talking about, right?
Cool! Let’s resume…
You’re a friend who never made me feel ashamed or embarrased,
You’re a friend who never mocked my stupidity,
You’re a friend who taught me craziness in life is a necessity,
You’re a friend with whom I can talk anything,
You’re a friend who inspired me that there is life beyond career,
I am so glad to find you,
Someone who shares same interest in music,
Someone who has the passion for dance,
Someone to talk crazy in late night
and never say goodbye
until our eyes are heavy
and our fingers can’t stand by,
Talking to you is like unraveling a mystery in dark,
The more we talk, the more about you is revealed as a spark,
Talking to you renders me worry free,
Talking to you, I am the best version of me,
I hope I never killed you with my boring and stupid conversations,
I just want to say,
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
All I can say is:
“Call me when you need a friend,
To be with you until the end,
As the mountains crumble to the sea,
Share your loneliness with me.”
Happy friendship day! Cheers!
PS: The last para is an excerpt from “Warriors in peace” by A.R.Rahman.
1. Travel while you are young “To travel is to take a journey into yourself.” – Danny Kaye
Traveling changes the way you think and perceive the world. Do adventures. After all, life is all about adventures, isn’t it?
2. Lower your expectations Don’t keep too much expectations from anyone. Expectations might hurt you
3. Don’t take life too seriously No one has ever escaped it alive. Those with coins enjoy drenching in rains peacefully. While those with currency notes in their pockets keep looking for roof
4. Choose friends wisely Have a small circle of friends who share your interests. They don’t need to be in the same group. If you’re interested in music, find someone who is that crazy as well. Love to shake your legs in DJ? Find a dance partner and your happiness will be doubled
5. Love finds its way Stop chasing love and start pouring that energy in something new, something exciting. Love usually comes when it’s the right time
6. Be optimistic A hopeless person is as good as a dead. Hope keeps you telling there are things worth fighting for
7. Keep smiling You’ll attract good people full with positive energy around you. Noone wants to talk to sadistic people
8. Get a good tight sleep Keep your worries out of sight when you go to bed. A good mental health is the secret ingredient of happiness. And a good mind needs a peaceful stress-free sleep
9. Don’t tie your emotions with materialistic things Broke your car? No problem, you can always get it fixed. Sometimes, it can be difficult but not impossible. Spend money in experiences and you will cherish it for the lifetime
In the night when clouds pass by,
Full of pain these eyes cry,
A faded picture of you appears on the wall,
Memories spent with you begins to crawl,
The beautiful spark that was between us,
Innocent blooming love that could make any soul jealous,
When everything was just going fine,
Why did our interests not align?
After all the caring for nights and days,
I still don’t know why we broke up and parted our ways,
I thought I would always make it right,
Never imagined you could ever be out of sight,
Although we argued and fought each other,
At the end of day, we were together,
Fights at dusk always dissolved with greetings of good mornings,
My days won’t be great without your morrow rings,
In the night when clouds cover the moon,
I ask myself, “Will it be all over soon?”
I don’t wanna live in this darkness,
When will moon of happiness tear down colors of sadness?
In the night when I stare at the roof,
I keep turning sides, coz sleep from eyes is unhooked,
Your sweet voice echoes from far behind,
Purpose of my life without you, where do I find?
In the dawn when sunrays brighten my face,
I check my phone accidently for your presence,
Then I realize those were the days of past,
Happy moments are ephemeral, they seldom last,
A feeling of emptiness after unheard prayer,
My life seems to crumble in despair,
With the thought of a moment spent with you, my heart dances,
I, sometimes wonder if dying love also has chances,
In the day when I smile widely outside,
There is nothing but a void inside,
If it were possible to rip heart out,
I would be the first to try it out.
Well, this question is bugging me for the past few months.
What profession would I have chosen if each profession is equally valued and earns me equal salary?
Before I dive into thoughts and weave webs about my feelings of living life , here is something which has fuelled my desires to live and changed my perspective of life completely:
Life is not always about destination. Sometimes the journey is more important and beautiful. Sometimes, you don’t care about where you want to reach. It just takes one special person to make that journey refreshing, enjoyable and memorable.
Once I started thinking about this, I started having a gut feeling that this is not the life I always wished to have. A life which gives me enough money to survive in this inflated world. A life where everything is virtual. A life where we stalk each other on web and develop a simple perception based on what we see and read. The vast majority of my past “likes” on social sites have been given by the people, whom I never met. Even if we have got a popular profile with tons of views, it’s not the profile which gets bored and lonely, it’s just us. Social networks have penetrated our lives to such extent that instead of experiencing real life, we keep our eyes constantly glued to screen and our ears filled with earbuds, putting our energy in judging people online who show others only a fraction of who they actually are in real life. Data says, if Facebook were a country, it would have the third-highest population, behind China and India. How cool!
I wish there were some app which could notify, “Hey! you need to enjoy fresh air. It has been long when you met real people”. After acquisition of Nest by Google, we can even expect such technology in near future.
I always wanted to make money, lots and lots of money so that I could live a king size luxurious life. A big Bungalow, a good wife(really?) and a Mercedes(I didn’t know a better car that time :P) to take a drive. That long drive on the non-ending hilly roads in the dusk of monsoon, with drops of rainy water gently kissing our faces, with a no care in the world. But in this tightly packed busy-busy schedule, all those dreams are lost. Those dead sunken dreams are awoken by just one incident. That one incident happened when I chose to watch Zindagi na milegi dobara (You get to live life only once) on a boring Sunday noon, which pumped adrenaline in my veins. An adrenaline rush to fuel my desire to live. An insight that materialistic things were never meant to be the sources of real happiness. Sometimes, we don’t need to seek happiness elsewhere. It is just within us. We only need to take a break, hold and look inside.
I have been more interested in photography, cars, traveling while being closer to nature. Nothing is more soothing than capturing moments you live in a camera so that you can relive those moments, freshen your memories when needed. Nature, beautiful nature. That wind whispering through the dry grass. Those golden flowers waltzing in the gentle breeze. Transparent water droplets splashed when a huge waterfall strikes the big stones on its way give a much more pleasant feeling, a feeling of relaxation, a feeling which is non comparable.
With all these thoughts, I realize I have never been so much wrong in my entire 25 years. But all this is only a feeling, like a fragrance floating in air, which can only be felt, which lasts only for couple of moments and then gets lost like we do in this fast moving technological world.
I have never been so lonely. I wish to explore the things around me before it’s too late, before my passion is crushed by the pressure of responsibility.
In the last 10 months, I started exploring the world. Trying out different things have been fun for me. I never thought I would ever get this much time for all these stuffs without hampering my work . They say it’s just about priorities and time management. Some people call me travel junkie, someone that crazy to save every penny for the next travel. Some call me adventure seeker, may be because I lived life to the extreme, may be because I have tried many things: Bungee jumping, Parasailing, Sea walking, Sky diving, Scuba diving.
To know and understand things better, I started picking up things one by one, dancing, piano, poem, photography. And the list goes on. Someone has said, 20 years from now, you would regret less about the things you did than the things you didn’t. I wish I would have started this earlier. Anyways, It’s better late than never.
There are things yet to explore, places yet to visit and experiences yet to garner. Who knows, while doing so, I may find my life companion. I could then someday tell, “And bwoy, this is how your mom and dad met”.
After exploring so many things, traveling seems to be just made for me. A guy who easily mingles with new people, never afraid of trying out new adventures and flexible enough to easily adapt to the new surroundings and culture. Traveling has changed me a lot. It has turned me into a writer, a poet. Someone has rightly said, “Traveling – It first leaves you speechless, and then it turns you into a storyteller”.
You know what, I have turned 25 this year. Why do I still feel like I haven’t achieved much? Why do I still feel I could have done much more? A writing from Ghalib beautifully explains my situation:
Thousands of desires each worth dying for, Many of them I have realized…yet I yearn for more.
At this age of life, I am,
Too young to start saving for a future, too old to live carefree,
Too young for people to take you seriously, too old to speak your mind freely,
Too young to settle down, too old to switch your profession,
Too young for philosophies, too old for cartoons.
An excerpt from ZNMD which is true to its each word:
Did we ever quit our jobs, switch off our phones, leave all tensions behind and just travel? No. We’ve only been planning of this while life passed us by? This ‘my bwoy’ is a serious problem! We live just once but die everyday at the hands of our mundane lives. May be, it’s time to explore the unexplored and let the road decide our destination.
Signing off for now. Hope you enjoyed reading this. If you have something to share, I would love to hear. After all this is how we connect, by listening, by telling, by sharing, isn’t it?
Good people are like cupcakes. They are exquisite. They look very yummy. You crave for their love.
It can be easily seen in your eyes, that you want one. But you’re too scared.
So instead, you gaze longingly from a safe distance, wishing that you had one all of your own.
Well, let me tell you, cupcakes like these, they don’t last. They get snatched up and devoured.
And if you don’t act fast, they will be gone.
You eat that cupcake daily. But you never appreciate it. The time you realize, it’s too late. It goes out of stock.
Now that cupcake of your life is gone, you think you’ll get another similar or better cupcake.. But somewhere down in your heart, you know that no other cupcake will please you. That your craving won’t be fulfilled by any other cupcake no matter how delicious, yummy, good looking and decorated it is.
So in case you get to find a cupcake so delicious that happens to blind you to think of any other, don’t be late. It deserves to know that it is exquisite. It deserves to know that you like it. It deserves to know that you love it. It deserves to know that you would never get bored of it no matter how many cupcakes you will get to see in your life.