I knew this was coming. But I wasn’t really prepared for it.
It was a happy jolly day in office. It was then I got to know from you. That’s how life is. When you are at the peak of happy moments, it drags you full down, reminding you that life can’t be pretty all the time.
My productivity dipped to zero. Absolute zero. I couldn’t think of anything. I was submerged in memories of our conversations in the past. Surrounded by Dementors in the broad daylight, I was being sucked of my sane and happiness.
You know since our very first conversation, I have liked only you. I don’t think I talked that many things with anyone else as I talked with you.
You had asked, “BTW, do you have something new to tell? Please say you have something new”.
Well, how could I have. The news you broke had shattered every bit of my sane mind. Things I was planning, suddenly seemed to hold no value at all. The distress was creeping inside me like hell, drowning me into the pool of sadness. I was like a pirate who had lost the most prized possession of his life.
I wished it to be one of those bad dreams, which when you wake up, you thank god that it wasn’t real. But as we know, real is different from the reel. And reality hurts, a lot. In the reel, the hero either gets his angel or steals away the show by hiding his pain under the hood of smile with finesse. I guess I ain’t an expert in either of the two.
I don’t think I would ever meet a girl like you in my life. You weren’t just a pretty face. You had a class, and panache. You were everything I dreamed of in my to-be-partner. To me, you were just perfect.
I will miss you S. Stay happy, wherever you are. You have lots of potential. I think I have already told you this many times, haven’t I?
There are many things I want to say. But my mind has stopped coordinating with the lips. Let those words unsaid. And those stories veiled.
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