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It was a lazy evening. I had Quora opened on my cellphone, Fringe on my big monitor and an article about Elon Musk on laptop. Something was not right. A cold feeling of void was crawling inside me. With Valentine’s Day shy of less than 2 weeks and seeing happy couples all around, I was thinking all over again. If you are wondering, let me unveil that it wasn’t the first time.

It might sound weird. But I ain’t quite fond of very big changes in life. I very well remember an incident from my childhood. I was at my dad’s clinic in late noon and my eyes fell on an envelope lying on the desk. Out of curiosity, I pulled it quietly and tore open. There was a letter inside, with my name from a school I never heard of. And followed the details of all the facilities and academics which were not of my interest. My eyes grew wide in fear. I didn’t want to leave home. You see, it was a big change for me. And I didn’t like it. Albeit I have grown to be an adult, my fear has not gone away.

I think this is the exact reason why I stayed at Microsoft for this long. Yes, the culture, work life balance, people, familiar faces, all are valid reasons. But for me, it’s that big change I want to avoid.

Arrange marriage scares me to hell. Marriage itself is a big change. But if you get to marry someone you know for relatively longer time, it’s kinda comforting. Afraid to say, I am running out of time set by my mom to find a girl of my choice. And that is worrisome. I always thought that this is not a great deal. I must say, I underestimated it deeply.

Will I ever learn to embrace big change with open arms? Let time be the judge of that. Till then, Happy Valentine’s Day!

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क्या बताऊँ उसके बारे में,
उसे देखता हूँ तो लगता है जैसे पूरी क़ायनात मुस्कुरा उठी हो,
जैसे ठंडी वसंती फ़िज़ा बहने लगी हो,
जैसी सारी समस्याएं काफूर हो गई हो,
क्या बताऊँ उसके बारे में,
उससे बातें करता हूँ तो वक़्त थम जाता है,
होश खो सा जाता है,
क्या बताऊँ उसके बारे में,
जब वो हसती है तोः खुद को भूल जाता हूँ,
क्या बताऊँ उसके बारे में,
लफ्ज़ कम पड़ जायेंगे,
वक़्त कम पड़ जायेगा

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बेवजह तुमसे मिलने के बहाने बनाता हूँ,
इक गुफ्तगू को खाली शाम तलाशता हूँ,
पता है कि तुम मना कर दोगी,
बस उम्मीदों के सहारे दिल को ढाढस बंधाता हूँ।

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It was a long tiring day. The worst thing about being single is that you can’t share experiences of the day with anyone but pillows. The reader opened a chapter from his favorite book and started reading quietly.

The night was at its peak. Grave silence was blended in the air. The moon was waiting impatiently for Mary near the lake.
“May I ask you something if you don’t mind”, the moon asked the girl. Curiosity was killing him since quite long.
“How do you know that you’ve found the one?”

This was a great question indeed. The reader of the book was longing for the answer since the moment he met his first crush in his early adolescence. He stopped for a moment, took a deep breathe and continued reading.

“I know that you guys don’t like the same music. You have different taste-buds. Your morning habits don’t rhyme with his. While I often see him lost in capturing my reflection in night, you seem to enjoy the silence.
How were you so sure that Peter was the one?”, the moon said with no halt as if he had practiced this many times.

After a pregnant pause, Mary spoke,
“Everything in life has got a purpose and a meaning. Sometimes, It’s important to see things the way they are.
I have learned that some poems don’t rhyme, yet they communicate the fullness of expression. Some trees don’t bear fruits, yet they give shade. Some days are not sunny, yet they are beautiful.
Look at yourself. Even after flaws and imperfections, you are so magnificent and beautiful that famous artists have been carving you in the best of their work since ages.
The starking contrast in our vision and different ways to perceive the same thing made us true companions. We might be different. But together, we are highly potent mixture.”

The reader had finished the chapter. In fact, he liked that part so much that he could never finish the book. “I must have read the story of moon and the girl a hundred times”, he whispered to himself.

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कुछ अलग ही कशिश थी उस शाम की हवाओं में,
ना चाहते हुए भी दिल बन्ध सा गया था,
निगाहें थम गई थी,
उसके चेहरे पर जम सी गई थी,
शायद हमारी बातों में ही कोई कमी रह गई होगी,
वरना एक और मुलाक़ात का हफ़्तों इंतजार ना करना पड़ता।

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November 5, 2017

Dear Mary,
It’s not at all fair to express my thoughts in such write-ups. Being a man of words, I can keep on writing forever and still it won’t justify the happiness bottled inside me. That evening is the best evening of my life. Talking to you is like flying in the air, above the fluffy clouds. It has the power to fuel life in dead souls. It’s a careful balance between dream and reality. Ever since I met you, I can’t think of more beautiful moment to live. All I crave for is a glimpse of you.

Yours always,
Peter

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हमारी कहानी उसी दिन ख़त्म हो गई,
जिस वक़्त हमारी नज़रें तुमसे मिली,
शायद इश्क़ हो गया है तुमसे,
वरना हर मुस्कराहट की वजह तुम ना होती।

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तुम्हे सोचते सोचते रात यूँ ही निकल जाएगी,
इक तूफ़ान सा है दिल में, नींद कहाँ आएगी,
कल कि मुलाक़ात ना जाने क्या अंजाम लाएगी,
तेरे चेहरे पर मुस्कान आएगी या ख्वाइश अधूरी रह जाएगी।

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कुछ बातें बिन कहे ब्यान हो जाती हैं,
कुछ इशारे, आँखें सब कह जाती हैं,
इक शाम यूँ ही मोहब्बत हो जाती है,
और किसी शायर को उसकी शायरी मिल जाती है।

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